Apologies for the clingy title but it’s been almost 5 whole months(!) since the last (and only) post on this blog. And that was the introduction. So, really, there have been no ‘real’ posts yet. And to be honest, it’s not you, it’s me.
I remember the group chat on the 31st of December when we hurriedly put together the introductory post. By that I mean
wrote a beautiful piece introducing the blog. Then we reviewed it and set up the post with multiple writers and all. I remember reading it and having literal chills. I don’t want to directly quote all the parts that I loved - I might end up quoting the whole thing. So, just go read it if you haven’t. It’s not that long. But I loved the parallels drawn between the actual Orion Nebula and the dreams for this Orion Nebula (the blog).A quote that particularly stood out was in the last paragraph:
“It is our dream to spur the next generation of scientific legends to various pursuits in science by writing beautiful scientific articles.”
No kidding. “spur the next generation of scientific legends”. And a few days later, I was like what did we mean by that? Serious question. Have I even ‘spurred’ myself? Since then I have written and discarded numerous drafts that I intended to publish simply because they didn’t give me chills when I read them. In other words, they were not spurring anyone. And I feel like I should talk about that.
First of all, really? If I saw a 19 year old university student (who has basically achieved nothing, let’s be real here) saying that, my first reaction would be ‘Lol, lmao even.’ Because why are you saying you want to spur the next generation of scientific legends (legends!) when you don’t even know anything yet? These tech bros, smh. You’re not even a scientist yourself. You are a computer science undergraduate. I’m sure you’re one of those software devs that call themselves ‘engineers’ (my current job description says “intern engineer” so I am indeed one of them 🥲). But you can see the issue. I can’t come out and proclaim that I want to spur legends when I haven’t done anything worth looking at. And this bothered me for a while. Should I delete the post? Should I just abandon the blog altogether and ‘grind in private’ till I have something to talk about? Do I just edit the original post? These were questions that went through my mind as I thought about that quote.
But as I thought more about it, it hit me. The legend that I hope to spur, the young mind that I hope to inspire, is not the random person that will come across this blog post. It’s me! I am the one that needs inspiring. I am the one that needs to rise up and do something. I can start writing about the perils of ‘my generation’ when my own life is not sorted out. I can rise up and try to change the world when my own room is still upside down. It’s very easy to analyze the speck in the eyes of others when a massive log is still lodged in my eyes. But that is unwise, I must start from home. So the right action is not to try to ‘spur others’ (whatever that means), or to abandon the blog. It is to pay attention to it, nourish it, and use it in a way that inspires me first, and hopefully others that read it.
How? What next?
What will be the content of the blog? I am not completely sure. For now, most of my posts will be some sort of devlog talking about the programming projects I am working on at the time. I have many interesting things on my mind in this regard, I hope I bring them to life. I could also do book reviews if I read any interesting books. I’ll try to make a post every 2 weeks.
I generally love to show rather than talk. Seeing that I have done a lot of talking here and no showing, here is a video of something that I have been working on recently. For now, it’s basically a wack ‘Paint’ app with just one brush color and an eraser but I have some big ideas ok? believe me 😶
So yeah, see you soon.
First take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye
Matthew 7:5
Powerful Sumn
I believe you, okay? 😂👏